I cant even keep my kick roll constant.. WTH IS WRONG WITH ME!?
life is so indefinite….
Awhile ago smiles were common…
now you had to spot a blue moon b4 these occurance ever happen…
Having to grit thru army… doing alot of thinking… i noticed that…
everything i plan to do after ORD… had always been changing always been veering away from the original plan…
Every single thing….
Education is so important…
Ego? Pride? Shame?
i really wonder…. how will i survive….
1 parent with no sibling… 1 pillar to rely on.. even as for now..
at this age i shouldnt even be taking a single dollar from her…
what a friggin failure….
How will i be able to support her when she grow old…
How…
A decision to be made….
after taiwan trip……
Maybe the Jacky now will vanish into the bottomless.. never to resurface again….
LOL
no this is not an emo post….
more like i’m reflecting on myself…. and to remind myself of my utter failure to make the right choice during the age of 17… i suffer the consequences even as of today..
life…..
Still i’ve got to smile…. =)
